Vannessa's CAS Reflection #5

My personal involvement in this activity was to contribute to the myself. I have recently found out that my partner in this project does not want to help anymore and she has started her own project. Our project was based on us both making hats for the Hospital and sharing the amount of time and effort put into the project. Now that she left the group of 2 I realized I can do the same project and have the same effect without her. The main task besides effort was consistent participation. I was expected to have at least 30 hats to donate to the hospital. When my teammate left the group, we had only made 10 hats so she left me with a lot of work to do on my own. The hats take at least 2 days each and since I am still unable to learn how to crochet a hat with just a needle, I am using a loom. This is easier to make but the product is a little rough. The hats are thinner and it takes even longer to make. However, I was able to improvise and figured out if I use 2 yarns at once, it will make the hat thicker but the process is extended even more. I try daily to crochet even if it is for a little bit. The more I get done the more I can donate to the Hospital making in hopes even more people happy. This helped me with actually getting projects done and to not let little inconveniences and problems hinder the goal set out.  As I have stated in previous reflections, I have always struggled with finishing projects and I have learned that continuing with a project is very pleasing as you get to work with it the entire time and see it progress into the final product. I only hope that in the very end when I am done crocheting all my hats and give them to the Hospital it will be very satisfying. Besides gaining the skill of continuation, I also gained a great deal of crochet skills and crochets helps to stay in touch with reality. It also helps relieve anger and stress throughout the day and with the common IB homework and impending due dates for assignments, IA's, IOCD's, and tests. When I think about how crocheting has helped my life, I have found it allowed me to make more mistakes and learn from those mistakes and have the ability to grow and move forward in hopes of achieving the end product. When I crochet, I make multiple mistakes; however, I go back, redo them, and have the ability of restarting as many times as I need. This in turn translates into my life as I continuously make mistakes, but without mistakes I cannot grow as a person. If I cannot grow and accept my failures, then I will never be able to learn and move beyond them.